The Soulful Thoughts...

Once upon a time, there was a boy called Raj. He was just a normal guy who was looking for a job. When he was at one of such interviews, he saw a girl. He was just mesmerized seeing her. Raj somehow wanted to talk her. He never talked to a stranger girl since he completed his college, in fact he never got a chance. But, seeing this girl, he just liked to do it somehow.

So at the end of interview, he took the courage and went near that girl. He started talking. It was just a casual talk. He too doesn't know what he was talking. But, he found her name at last, Geetha. After a while, the interview was done and everyone left for the day.

After some days, he was shocked to see Geetha again at the last round of interview. But, this time she was accompanied with her mom :-) But, her mom left soon after..

Meanwhile, Raj got lucky as he got some more time to talk with her. His last round was already complete. But, he was waiting for her round to commence. So, he just stayed to talk more with her. And they did.. It was again just a casual talk. A casual talk for Geetha, but not for Raj !!!

Anyhow, they both later found out that they were not selected for that post. So, they just kept moving on. But, Raj was in touch with Geetha often.

After some days, when they both somehow got into their jobs, he met her more often. He thought he was getting close with her. He also did some strange things just to get close to her.

So, one day, he thought to find out if Geetha too has any feelings for him...

Raj truly wanted to confirm whether it was just his feeling that he loved her; coz sometimes the case maybe that she may never have any feeling for him at all... His bad.... Maybe it was all just his perception.. What to do.. He doesn't know how to express anymore.. He expressed it his way.. Maybe that didn't please her..

Raj liked to express the other way.. And he loves that way.. Like talking smoothly, with always some jokes playing around other people... He would always do that with everyone..He would just try to bring in life wherever he goes.. And he does...

But...

When Raj goes close to his Girl, that's it.. He's gone.. He can't take further action :P However hard he tried, he just ends dumbstruck in front of her.. By all these things, maybe she ends up thinking he's just a boring candidate...

Well, he tried a couple of times, for her sake.. And he thinks that it worked.. But, he couldn't get to know that it never did !!!

Again, Raj tried to be a little more different.. He tried to flirt with Geetha.. But, that didn't suit this guy.. He again became a Dunce in front of her trying to do that.

And Raj always kept thinking.. "Do I need to do this to please my Love.. Do I need to do something for which am not original.. I can do it, but whats the point in accepting that which I dint do it with my Soul. "

and more... "And whats the point, if at all she falls for this fake.. Will I be happy myself for the Fake Me.. I can fake myself, no problem.. But, I'll always have the feeling that am not being original to the Girl whom I consider my Soul..."... so those were his thoughts...

But again, seeing all these, Geetha might think that - 'Who said to do all these for me... Let me Live my Life. !!!'

So, she just fails to understand that he's actually trying to share his whole Life with her.. to support in her every way she likes to be.. to be with her... One thing always keeps ringing in his head....'Stay with Me... Stand by Me...' And he always feels sad thinking she doesn't see what he sees....

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And one day this guy heard one of the person telling him that - "Once a girl and boy are in a good relation, their Love and Care for each other looses some shine..."

At this point, this guy just kept on wondering - 'why to even think of this situation when both persons are good together..'

He said to himself- 'If you're thinking that way, then its confirm that you're in doubt yourself, not confident, to even choose a life partner.. Why even think of loosing interest once they're in relation.. Why don't you instead think of keeping the Love at the same level, no increase no decrease.. Just maintain wit good understanding..'

And this point can be better explained here.

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Later that day, he met his old friend Harish, who was recently married.. It was a Love Marriage.. Raj smiled himself seeing his friend, thinking - 'Lucky guy...'

But, he later learned that Harish always used to fake around his wife. Raj witnessed it himself.. And sometimes he kept wondering- 'Why do girls always fall for the fake ones....'

But Raj was sure of one thing about Harish, that one day all this will fall down.. And to his shock, that day came too early.. Raj was now just feeling sorry for his friend. Coz, Harish just broke up with her wife. They are not divided, but, they both just live together in a compromised mode now..

To put Harish's situation in short: Harish always used to take her for granted about all the things, like - 'ah, she's my girl now, whatever I do, no one cares, she's anyhow mine..', And that proved to cost him his relationship now... This can be considered as another example of a fake...

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Now, Raj was not able to understand what to do after all these... So, he went to his best friend Surya..

As soon as Raj went to him, they shook their hands and sat on the sofa..

Later, Surya went to is room, filled two glasses and came back to the drawing room. Raj picked up the glass and they were silent for a while.

Raj slurped a sip and started talking with Surya about his life..
Raj just kept on blabbering like - "Well, if needed, a person can change himself for his Love. And that may turn out to be a good relation in their future. But, at the same time, I also should agree that this all change is a temporary thing; and that it will come out at some point of time in Life from one of you like - 'I changed because of you, for you; and you don't care for me now..". Thats the Fact..

Surya took another sip and kept listening to his friend. What more he can do.. He was just supporting Raj who was speaking his heart out.. So, Surya just stayed there, listening..

Raj completed his glass and continued with his speech, 'So, I wonder why they always look for all these extra-ordinary things in a man. Why don't they trust a person as he is.. Why do they compare their past experiences with the current relation, if any..'

Surya just filled in another round for both of them..

Meanwhile, Raj continued, 'And of course, they'll have the doubt.. But, do they need to be so stern that they should completely block off that person and never ever even give the ability for themselves to atleast give a thought to free themselves from this situation.. How else they can come out of their illusions of their past experiences.. Are you done with one fake relation.. That's It ? That's what you're capable of ?'

At this point, Surya was just going round and round trying to understand what he was actually saying.. So, he just came close to Raj, fetched him his glass.. and said, 'Dude, leave her man.. maybe she just doesn't want you..'

Raj took a sip and started again, 'Agreed. She'll never feel the same feeling with me anymore.. Maybe she just can't imagine me in that position.. Maybe am such a dumb; ugly; no attitude; can't talk properly guy; don't know how to talk to a girl; and how to act when in a crowd guy..'

Surya just kept scratching his head while Raj continued, 'But, I've true confidence that I can take care of my family and me.. What else one wants basically... Do I have to show some proof for that or what...'

Surya just couldn't understand what to talk with him now. So, he shooted a direct question, 'What if your girl agrees to stay with you now, stands by you now... what will you do...'

Raj was just lost in thoughts after all this. With misty eyes, he said in a low voice, "Hmmm.. Don't know what I'll do when we're together, can't imagine.." And Raj hardly managed to say in a hush voice in the end, "That's what I want to figure Out..."

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There are some people who place their special person in their Soul, heart and mind, in the same place where they consider their mom, dad, siblings..

And Raj was one of them. He gave so much importance and involvement to his Girl; he always used to think of her wherever he goes... whatever he does... she just became a part of his Mind and Thoughts...

Whenever he sees any couple outside, his heart would just skip a bit... and he would get lost in thoughts often...

When he sometimes visits some places, like shopping, his mind would go ringing thoughts like - 'hey, i should take this for my sister/brother, he/she would love it' and like 'hmmm.. mom would love it if I take this for her'. Most of them feel similar to Raj in this case, I believe...

And in some family gatherings, Raj always used to think that if his Geetha was here, she would have brought Life in here..

Raj always thought:

Always Wishing You would come to Our Home one day...

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if you're looking for a conclusion of this story... you'll not find it...

Coz,

Raj's Life is now Incomplete... and it will stay that way !!!

My Time just freezes when I see You !!!